I spoke the simple truth. Man is a fool if he believes the world a perfect whole. I am part of a part that, at the start, was All; part of the darkness that, though once complete, gave birth to light, which fights now to defeat its mother, darkness, but is doomed to fall.

I think I understand your situation. Failing to bring about annihilation on the grand scale, you start with something small? The healthy active instinct of creation will everlastingly resist the power of malicious condemnation bunched in your sterile, passive fist. So why don't you desist?